The song
Fills my ears with acid
I tear out my headphones
I don’t want to think of you
Not today
Because
I don’t know…..
Because
The song plays.
I can still hear it
I can still feel your lips
Your hands
You body
Your voice
Popping up like
Internet tabs
Empty advertisement
My body rejects it
I go numb
I dream
I found someone new
And it was
The best dream I had in months
Years
Remember when we said
We were each others addictions?
Guess what,
You still are
Only now you’re a bad habit
Like smoking
And your being
Kills me faster
With each memory
Brought to my lips
And smoked
Till I cry
And the cancer of these
F****ed up memories
Is spurred on faster
By your love for her
Which again
I cry
And I don’t know why
I just can’t forget you
Can’t watch baseball
Can’t eat sundaes
Can’t do math homework
Can’t see coopers
Can’t
Breath
And I can’t yell
At you
Because it’s my fault
My head
My memories
So why cant they
Just shut up
And leave
Me
Alone?
Because I don’t want to be alone
I’m wading in circles
Cause I like the water
Suddenly I cant stop
Trapped in my own whirlpool
It’s my fault
You’re gone