I’m scared
I’m a coward
I’m on the edge
Barely reaching over
Never jumping in
I make excuses
I run away
Don’t bear the weight
There’s no one to blame

I’m safe
I’m comfy
Because my heart isn’t breaking
Just sitting alone waiting
For someone to save me

No scars
No bruises
No reason for shame
But also no joy
When I only have myself to blame

For living in the grey
For holding on instead of falling
For believing that someone else could save me
For having no one around when I come calling
For what I am
For what I want to be

Maybe next time I’ll jump
I need to break free
Of feeling like this
Maybe it’s just about time to leave