I don't even know why I cry anymore
all I know is my family has become just people
friends teachers and mentors are the only ones I can count on
I cry every minute of every day but I don't let anybody see
I know that they haven't gone through my pain
they would say they understand but I know it's not true
watching them try would hurt me even more
my family doesn't support me
they make fun of anything they know or find out about me
I don't know why I still love them
the only one that actually acts like family is my older brother
he, my friends, and teachers are the only ones that show any support
they have become my true family
they're there when I need them
they help me up when I fall
they push me to strive to my full potential
they are an indestructible net that's always there
I cry for my ignorant family that doesn't understand
i cry for all the pain I take for the family
I am the well where all of the tears come from
I am the only one that shows emotion
I feel as if all the pain and suffering of my family falls on me
like I am the box that stores all our emotions and I can't contain it all
my family redirects all their pain on me
it doesn't hurt me when other make fun of me
what really hurts is when my family does it
when I'm down on the ground in pain all they do is step on me
then the glimmer of hope for humanity that is my friends come and help me get up on my feet
these words on the screen is the only way I can soften a tiny bit of the pain
I wish there was someone who understood everything I go through but there is only one me
I hope no one else ever has to go through all the pain I go through every day