I'm bleeding from the inside out on this very beautiful day
but once upon a time it was heal
till you capture and beat and beat
beat for days on end thinking it would never end
lies and lies i told myself to be able to see through the blood pouring heavily down my face
needles and threads just to show off the herbs that I'm better
smoke me away and drink my memories away and then operate on me
stop the internal bleeding to cry white water out and smile fearless emotion
but at the end of the visit I'm still left with scars that can easily open and take over the white and sweet tears
to set back time to the past and continue bleeding from in and out repeatedly
never late to turn white to red soon
operation operator tell me how i look after all of this