Losing faith

Brought up hearing"god this" and "god that"

being told what to beiieve in
Then "god" took away the only thing i cared about.
Everyday shedding tears wondering why.
I couoldnt help but cry my eyes out screaming why why and why.
I was told he took the bad.
Then why her.?
She was good.
pure.
happy.
internally beautiful.
but he didnt care.
he wanted her.
and he took her.
snatched her from my life,
watched me break
cry.
become lost.
Now i cant help it.
Cant help but lose faith.....