Until you can understand you cannot know. once you know, knowing becomes the struggle. The struggle then becomes a smile, a smile you use to as a front to feel free. Really your trapped and you can't get out. As many you search for the way out, or at least you try and fail. Your first try weed becomes a need. Your second try, you attempt to take your life with a knife. Until your objective is to persevere; knowing will stay the struggle. I will persevere.