I want to explode.
so many demands,
so many things to keep up at once.
I want to run away
and I know
these things will follow me
I don't even pay attention
to life anymore,
nothing makes sense
and everything is just
noise, sound
the world going on without me
It's like i died
and i'm just
watching, trying
to participate in life
I'm drowning and my mind is racing
heart is pounding,
my lungs burning for oxygen
I don't understand how i'm living
without air
sometimes I feel like an actor
playing the role of life
sometimes I want to play on the keys of death
I can't breath anyway
chocking
drowning
all the same
it's hard to fight for air
when you don't know
what's cutting it off