Look inside my happy eyes and you will see it’s just a disguise to protect myself from agonizing pain driving me ever slowly insane I’ve seen hell and its dirty deeds in my heart it plants the seeds and tears my lovely joy to bits and I know that my personality split. Such heart shattering loneliness and horrible bitter sweet in my heart pain lingers there giving Satan a lovely treat. I’ve seen the tears fall from my eyes into my fragile dreams but look deeper inside my dear friend I’m not all as I may seem. I’ve heard the hell angels call my name as I sink to a deeper despair I can tell he is listening but he really doesn’t care my screaming doesn’t harm him it fills him with joy but the bitter pain in my heart is too hard to destroy.
May 14, 2012