I drove there alone
What am I doing to myself?
I knew it was wrong but I didn’t care.
I knew it was something that would hurt me in the end
I raced home to change,
Putting on the old one’s jacket,
To keep him on my mind tonight.
Told my mom I was going somewhere else.

I drove there alone on the first chilly night of fall.
My boo was there waiting for me.
My heart fluttered, my stomach dropped.
We strolled to the park awkwardly.
Not sure where to pick up from our departure.
Mundane conversation at first blossoming into more.
“How have you been?” genuinely interested
“Same ‘ol same ‘ol. You Know” he answered with despair

Moving through the dark together to the swings,
Wanting nothing more than just being in his embrace.
Praying my wish comes true.
He pulls me close to keep me warm,
I swallow the lump in my throat, push the tears away.
That was all I wanted.
Sitting with my sunflower for hours.

I drove there alone and left there alone.
Only someone new on my mind.