Save me from myself

What wrong with me
Every were i go people look at me like am a freak
Cold stare
Jugging me before they know me
Not welcome in their world
Not even my own
Just wanting to be love
Wanting to belong in that world
To be on top
A god among men
No longer the target for insecurities
What wrong with me
I just want a true friend
Not a lie walking
What is a true friend
What the truth
Are they really my friends
Or are they trying to get me
What do I do