God why are you doing this to me?
Why am I so afraid to lose one person
who I've known not even a year
Why does my heart feel empty
when I push him away, when I know he's not here?
Why am I being so stupid?
Was letting him in, really the right choice?
Or maybe I should have pushed him away like everyone else
then maybe I wouldnt be hurting like this
I can't lose him God, I love him
if you're really here, will you help me please?
He's changed me, helped me be better
and now I don't know what to do
I want to say 'goodbye' to all the pain that this has put me through
When I said 'I love you' to him, I really did mean it
I was scared to say it but did it anyways
But it didn't mean anything to him
I can NOT lose him God
It will tear me to pieces
But I can't think of any other way
to escape the pain
Because I can't pretend that I'm okay
with being just his friend
I love him, and I will always
until the very end