Unwanted

That moment when your with a group of people and you still feel alone. So alone. Unbelievably alone. Without him near me I always feel alone. He is my comfort, my attention, my life, my future. The love is so faded, but needed. This situation is just so confusing. Don't know what to do, don't know who to tell, what to say or how to say it. My feelings I feel are so indescribable like no one can relate. Need help. I am next to a group of people, they are just talking. I wonder if they notice me? Am I invisible? Am I noticeable? Is this just a nightmare? I want this to end...