“shower”

you said yes

and then jumped. as though it were one of those riffs you liked.

.

Can we smoke?

you said no

then said yes. as though it were one of those synth-beats you tolerated.

because you loved me.

(I know that now.)

.

So we smoked.

you threw up.

.

The light was blue

the water warm. Yo La Tengo. (yo la tengo tambien)

you slipped

after me.

.

your beard touched my face.

you said

“I love you”. as though it were a song.

I didn’t hear it

because I didn’t know.

.

and now when we sit on the couch

you sit on one side

I on the other.