I dont Understand

I miss you so much
my emotions a mess.
my life right now's hectic
so much stress.

I'm pissed at myself
for letting this fall through
blaming myself
when i should be blaming you.

Do you realize the pain
I'm going through?
honestly,right now
I don't think you do!

my hearts in pieces
more than it was before
my head's spinning
my emotions are tore.