The song starts, my hurts go away and I am gone.
My reality becomes just my biggest fear and,
the bee sting of isolation and scorn is numb.
I feel myself float away.

The beat pulses throughout my body.
Her deep soul filled voice soothes the silence in my head.
My heart and soul are at home,
recognizing the deep tones her voice.

My mind rests for a while.
It doesn’t have to think about life,
and the problems I face each day.
Each day filled with those who judge and ridicule.

The music ends and I am yanked back.
Slapped awake by my biggest fear that is truly a reality.
My whole body longs to be in of those three minutes of numbness.
The song repeats and I am returned to my senseless fantasy.