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I'm Jealous of myself

February 23, 2012
By EAR_SAP GOLD, Thomasville, North Carolina
EAR_SAP GOLD, Thomasville, North Carolina
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Favorite Quote:
Empty your mind, be formless… shapeless, like water. If you put water into a cup, it becomes the cup. You put water into a bottle; it becomes the bottle. You put it into a teapot; it becomes the teapot. Water can flow, or it can crash. Be water, my friend…”


I’m Jealous of myself
I think I hate Eric
I think I love Eric
I think I’m jealous of myself

Eric is handsome he can get any girl
But he decides to shun them, they don’t understand his world

Eric has the potential to be everything
Anything he wants to be
But instead he would rather watch people live his dreams on T.V

Eric knows the right thing to say to someone
But he chooses to stay silent

Eric is 6 feet tall; yeah he can reach for the stars
But he wants to stay in the dark, remain in his small disturbing world

Eric is afraid of no man, No, that’s a lie
He is afraid of himself, he always let himself down

I think Eric needs to go
I think Eric needs to die
It’s time to give birth to a new person
Someone such more wise
I got it; EAR_SAP

Yes EAR_SAP
EAR_SAP doesn’t care how others think about him because he knows he’s good
Eric doesn’t care how he looks, he wish would

EAR_SAP eats to live
Eric lives to eat

Eric has all the time in the world, but wastes it
If EAR_SAP had half of the time Eric had he would take it

I think Eric needs to die
He’s time has come
So I’ll take this gun
(Boom) Eric has died
I killed him
I am now EAR_SAP

Eric was very real, but now he is the past
EAR_SAP was a figment of my imagination, but now he is reality
Eric was EAR_SAP a little
EAR_SAP is not Eric
EAR_SAP will remember Eric
EAR_SAP shares Eric’s memories
Eric hasn’t experience what EAR_SAP experience

I guess I loved Eric
I think I hated Eric
I used to be Jealous of Eric
But now I am EAR_SAP

The author's comments:
This is how I'm feeling right now. When I write this I was starting to realize how wrong I've be all my life. Please Enjoy

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