The pain inside

January 22, 2012
By Anonymous

The sting of the blade is nothing compared to the burn of rejection.
My heart throbs with pain as I take my aggression out on my wrists.
so many things I wish I could say,
I wish I could tell you what you've done to me.
If only I could know what was running through your head, as you spewed out words that cut like razors.
but now I'm literally cut by razors, cut by the pain that everyone has fed me for so long.
Perhaps my life will end like this. cold and lifeless on the floor of the home I dread.
Maybe it will end just in the nick of time, before I do some major damage.
What I have done already will leave marks of my pain, marks of the abuse I've suffered for years on end.
maybe someone could help, but who? Who would be willing to put up with a girl that has as many problems as me?
Thank God they don't see me as I am, or I would be finished, I would never want to show my face again.
Everyone would look at me different, and tell me that I'm not good enough.
Perhaps death is the ultimate answer, and I'm only prolonging my pain everyday that I don't do something about it.


The author's comments:
I just recently started cutting, because it's been really hard to deal with my family, and all the things I have been going through lately.. I know this isn't that good, but it's how I truly feel about my life. Tell me what you think?

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on May. 31 2012 at 6:26 pm
forsaken_sadness BRONZE, Gresham, Oregon
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Favorite Quote:
“Sometimes, the smallest things take up the biggest parts of our hearts” –Winnie the Pooh

 

Thank you so much that means a lot to me..


on Feb. 13 2012 at 4:06 pm
MarissaWhitecloud SILVER, Oskaloosa, Iowa
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It really describes why people cut them selfs and do what they do. Its not good to hurt yourself but how you wrote this was beautiful though.


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