It's You

January 10, 2012
I'm sorry.
I never wanted to see this day.
The day one of us had to leave.
It's not what I wanted.
It's the last thing.
You broke my heart.
Right in half.
In crumbles, actually.
You were my world.
You are.
I knew better.
Knew better than to make you my everything.
Now I will have nothing.
If you leave.
Please don't leave.
I don't know how to live.
Not without you.
My heart.
You are my heart.
It hurts.
My heart.
I'm lonely.
More than ever.
Why should I be lonely?
All because of you.
When you're gone, I'm alone.
What do I do now?
Now that you're gone.
I put so much effort in.
Into this.
Why did I?
It didn't work.
Nothing ever works.
Not for me.
Even if I tried.
Even if I put in everything I had.
Which is what I did.
For you.
It's all for you.
All I have now are lessons learned.
Memories made.
There will never be a day.
Never a second
You aren't on my mind.
Why am I losing the only thing?
The only thing I've ever wanted.
You are the reason.
The reason I woke up with a smile on my face.
Every day.
Every single day.
The reason I looked forward to coming home.
Now I can never come home.
Home isn't this house.
Home is you.
It's always been you.
I wish you realized.
Realized how much you mean to me.
How much you still mean.
I would do anything.
Anything for you.
I want to stay.
I want to.
But after all.
All this time.
After everything.
Every tear.
Every hurtful word.
I owe it to myself.
To be happy.
By myself.
But what if I can't?
What if I can't be happy all by myself?
What if I can't be happy without you?
You are my happy.
You will always have a piece.
A piece of me.
Even if you don't want it.
I want this to work.
I want us to work.
If only.
If only you were willing.
Now it can't.
It can't work.
Nothing ever works.
It seems like we've come so far.
We have.
We have come far.
Far from where we started.
Far from where I wanted it to end.
Too far to end.
At least like this.
It can't end like this.
Like it was nothing.
Like we were nothing.
It's too easy.
Why would we give up?
This easily.
Why are we giving up now?
When we've already held on for so long.
So long.
Why aren't you happy?
Why am I happy?
So happy.
Too happy.
Too happy for this to be ending.
It doesn't make sense.
Why can't you just love me?
Is something wrong with me?
Why can't you be happy?
Is something wrong with you?
I hope you figure it out.
Figure out what you want.
I hope it's me.
I hope.
I hope you find it.
Whatever it is you are looking for.
What are you looking for?
I wish it was me.
I wish.
I wish you the best in everything you do.
I do, really, I do.
I hope you chase your dreams.
But I know you won't.
I know you will never be happy.
Not without me.
At least I hope.
I hope.
Because I will never.
Never be happy without you.
I would miss you.
Every day I would miss you.
Every single day for forever.
What happened to forever?
Being happy forever.
Forever is a long time.
Maybe too long to promise.
You promised.
I was ready for forever.
Why weren't you?
It will be hard to forget you.
You gave me too much.
Too much to remember.
To forget.
I can't forget.
I won't.
I don't want to forget you.
I will never forget.
Not you.
Not how I felt.
About you.
Not how I feel
Is this what you wanted?
Is this how you wanted it?
You made it seem that way.
Made it seem so easy.
To hurt me.
Why do you hurt me?
You did this.
Just take one last look around.
Will you miss this?
Miss me?
Ask yourself why.
Why am I not happy?
If the answer is me...
Feel free.
Free to go.
Free to be free.
To leave me.
To leave us,
and everything
To forget.
Please don't forget.
Please don't forget me.
Don't forget the times you were happy.
You were happy.
We were happy.
I tried.
Tried to hold myself together.
Tried to hold you together.
Nothing works.
Nothing ever works.
You fell apart.
I did.
I fell apart.
Maybe love is too much to believe in.
Maybe we aren't supposed to.
Not supposed to believe.
Maybe it's about the experience.
You experience love.
You don't believe in it.
You feel it.
I felt it.
I still feel it.
I will always.
Always feel it.
It's all for you.
It's always been for you.
Always I will be here.
If you want me.
I will be
For you.
For you to realize.
Who you are.
What you had.
You still have it.
Right there.
Right in front of you.
You can have it.
You can have me.
If you want me.
Please want me.
Please love me.
Hold me.
Kiss me.
Like you used to.
One more thing.
To ask.
Ask yourself.
Where do I want to be?
Where do I belong?
If the answer is with me.
I'll be here.
Waiting for you.
It's always been for you.
I will always love you.

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