We could fall asleep through anything--to avoid reality
Spent time like it was counterfeit–
Not worth a freaking thing.
And the soot that the cab driver
throws into your hands, I’ve been there.

Have you ever been surprised when you looked at the ocean?
Flicked our cigarettes in the sand
Defying our meaning
Running your fingers through dirty-blonde waves
No, it can’t exist--Something big
Something actually important!?

And dreaming!
We–everyone
Sweaty hair caked to hotel beds.
Closed our eyes to pick their peaches.
Fake orchard in the South.
Paradise-you been there?

Did someone say pair o’ dice?
I’ve been there.
Girls in bowties and skintight velour
Dealing us our separate failures
Smoke in our throats
I’ve been there.
I am the slot machine–
Disappoint everyone
Just to make a living.