He Won't Be There

December 30, 2011
He won’t see me go
into high school.
He won’t wait up
'til 10 o’clock
for me to come home.
He won’t have conniption
because I bought a
500$ prom dress.
He won’t cheer for
me when I get my diploma.
He won’t hug me and tell
me he’s proud of me
for getting into Yale.
He won’t walk me
down the aisle.
He won’t hold my
hand when the contractions
are getting worse.
He won’t see his
grandkids grow up.
He won’t be there
when I need him the most.

They say you don’t
know how strong you
are ''till being strong
is your only option.

Well, I’m tired of
wearing the fake smile.
I’m tired of being strong.
I’m tired of surviving
the day, instead of enjoying it.
I’m tired of waking
up and not knowing if he did.
I’m tired of all the
worrying and the what-ifs.
I’m tired of not
knowing if I’m gonna
get called from school one
day and my mom tells
me the bad news.
I’m tired of getting a
bad feeling every time my
mom says "Come here,
we gotta talk."
I’m tired of the tears.
I'm tired of the sleepless nights.
I’m tired of the pain.
I just want my dad.
MY dad.
Not the one
who says
"Yeah, I’m fine.
Don’t worry about me."

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katieyoung18 said...
Jan. 3, 2012 at 12:50 pm
This is a very good poem, it speaks so real makes it seem like my dad is dieing, but i really dnt knw how a dad is suppose to love his child mine left. but it makes me think about my mom and how i would feel
mirandablack16 replied...
Jan. 3, 2012 at 8:54 pm
I'm sorry. I really am, because having a Dad like mine is truly an amazing experience. Just think of it this way: He wasn't your Dad. He was you FATHER. The difference is that a Dad loves. A Father is just..there. Thank you So much for commenting. I appreciate it. (: And again; I'm sorry.
alexb42621 said...
Jan. 2, 2012 at 3:59 pm
This made me cry. The way you describe it it makes us all fear the same things, things that have never passed through the abyss of our minds. Thank you for writing this. It helps me appreciate things a lot more. I hope you get through this (: We're here for you. Words will never fail you. "Speak you mind, even if you voice shakes"
mirandablack16 replied...
May 13, 2013 at 9:54 am
I'm glad it does.. I write because it helps me and if I can write well enough, then I want to help others, too. And yes, that quote couldn't be more true. Everyone deserves a reason to live and have a life well-meant, so if you can reach it, go for it. 
JessJess96 said...
Jan. 2, 2012 at 12:42 pm
This is a very beautiful poem.. very emotional. My prayers are with you and your family :)
Mia.bliss said...
Jan. 2, 2012 at 10:22 am
Good job...........Keep writing! May God bless you!
mirandablack16 replied...
May 13, 2013 at 9:51 am
I will. Thank you!
IzzyVT said...
Jan. 1, 2012 at 1:03 pm
I very much agree with the other comments...the realism you write of is so genuine, and the final lines (the quote) finished the poem perfectly. If you have a chance, I'd love it if you could look at my work (I only have one poem published...two are pending).
mirandablack16 replied...
Jan. 1, 2012 at 4:14 pm
I'd love to. (: And Thank You for your comments. And I also have a couple pending, so if you get a chance, you can read them, too. (:
Jazzimaniac said...
Dec. 31, 2011 at 5:40 pm
WOW. This is really incredible. Hope that your dad gets better.
mirandablack16 replied...
Jan. 1, 2012 at 1:36 am
Thanks, but it's inevitable. :/ Although; everything happens for a reason, right? (:
ThatGirlWhoRuinedEverything This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. said...
Dec. 31, 2011 at 2:21 pm
simple, but it really hits home. good job.
mirandablack16 replied...
Jan. 1, 2012 at 1:37 am
Thanks (: I appreciate you reading my work. (:
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