Drinking my own strength

I cant leave the past behind
It's lurking in the back of my mind
Triggering off scene's to remind me
I can keep my head held high
As if I'm standing strong
While the pain inside, lingers around
Like the alcohol taking over my body
Taking over my blood.
I'll keep on smiling
Covering up the tears
Cause I ain't scared
Giving up would be my weakness
And this drink
This drink is my strength