Im trapped

I’m trapped
In this body, unable to move
This body is holding up their family with no breathing room.
Parents, busy trying not piss each other off
Older sister, more like younger
Thing in her, my life made me mature faster than others
Was it all worth it?
Seeing my mother almost die
Struggling in school
This body wasn’t ready for all this
I don’t know if I’m okay with this
Some days I wonder what I would be like
Being skinny, smart
Good relationships
Instead, when my sister goes to college
The rents stop parenting
F by F pass through the grade book
Thanks, disability.
I hate this life
I love this life
I hate this life
I love this life
Some days it’s hard to pick which one it is
I’m trapped in this body that I love
Some days…