Secrets Kept

Trying to hide my love from you
Never easy
My once living heart- cold and blue

My skin crawling with your lies
Itching to no longer feel you
Never hearing a hello only your good-byes

Hush-keep your apology
Go ahead leave me again
I can not wait to be free

Something about you traps me
Hands gripping me tight
Slowly drowning in the sea

Intertwined with you-hate
I don’t want to feel
Forget you- I am too late

The feelings for you never fade
Engrained in my heart
Now I wish I never stayed

I should have run when I could
I don’t want to feel this way
No one should

I smile through all my pain
But my eyes don’t lie
Annoying-stuck like a stain

My mind filled with thoughts of you
Your smile-your eyes
Praying for someone new

No matter how hard I try
Will you ever leave?
Hold on-trying not to cry

But
Here I am in love with you