I wake up every day feeling crappy and depressed, hiding my emotions keeping my feelings suppressed. What I’ve been through in the past can be considered detrimental, but in this thing we call "life" I have to learn the fundamentals. My teacher told me "circumstances rule us, we do not rule circumstances”, but I gave up hope thinking God doesn’t believe in second chances. I’m not a bad person, I just make bad decisions, but when reality hit me it was like a head-on collision. life is getting realer and now I have to face the truth , I don't want to be another statistic of wasted youth. But my mind is sort of cloudy and it's kind of hard to find my way, all I can do is try to pray that a brighter day will come my way. With everything I’m going through , I’m starting to believe I AM cursed, I guess I have to hope for the best yet prepare for the worst !