This standing essence surfaces the remnants of my other

A twisted version I've tried to smother

When there's no bearing listen to the thoughts, smile, prevent others from caring

It's outta place
The feelings been erased

waiting for another the encumber the emptiness that is my mind

You'll question, and attempt to define

There's still this reality
in these moments of clarity,
its that essence I've come associated with your presence

It's started again
Beginning and the end
It's you I despise we're far from harmonized

In spite of all its done, I'll continue to have my fun

Its days like these you remind me why I gave myself this disease
Each cell slowly appeased
Life is again at ease.
I no longer aim to please
I wait for your deceit