I force a smile on my face, I fake my happiness so no one will see the truth,if I smile I can't cry and you'll never relies I hate myself. I'm afraid of this world and what it will do to me I can't control it. On the outside I may look strong but on the inside I'm torn into pieces, every little piece represents the past. All those moments I've felt alone. You don't understand how every single word you've ever said rings In my ear. I refuse to turn off my music; you hate it but you don know why. As soon as I turn the music off all I hear is my thoughts, they could eat me alive if I let them. I beg them to stop but there evil. All those nights with no sleep there's no stopping it this is who I am . But is it really who I need to be Or is it who I was? It's the simple things In life that scares me the most , but what is life when your living In fear?