Certain Sunshine

October 2, 2011
By Anonymous

I believe in certain sunshine
A very close friend of mine
We thrived in my head
And made killing fields dead

Now I believe in deadly depression
A relative of mine own suppression
We fought and I won
I conquered the sun

But you eat my friends
And tears you send
I now mostly cry
Because I want to say goodbye

My life is filled with decadence
Most anxiety and pressure since
I was thirteen and quite ignorant
Growing naïve and quite despondent

Now I dream of suicide
Perhaps hanging or cyanide
“For Madmen Only”
Of happiness phony

The author's comments:
I wrote this after experiencing a depressive and anxious situation. I have not experienced them in quite a few years and I was reminded of a sad time in my life. Since then things have been better but they seem to be going farther downhill toward how I remember my childhood, which wasn't so sunny.

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on Nov. 28 2011 at 11:30 pm
no.name. PLATINUM, Ceres, California
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I'm sorry for you feeling so sad. I've been there before. If things are still bad, I hope they get better for you truly. This was great, I loved the emotion.

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