am i over it

I do it any way
though it hurts
loving you i can't stop
i even replay you put me through
i can remember some things so clearly
to where i imagine i'm back in the place
to where i was forced to love a devil
i hear the screams
the cry's
i trick myself into thinking
i'll stop loving you
if i remember all the horrible things you put me through
when really i'm hurting and drowning in my own sorrows