Masochism

My heart hurts
When you talk about her
{always}
I get it
I understand
{you still love her}
I’m okay with that
But
Sometimes
I need to know
{am I just a replacement?}
Am I just someone
For you to hold
{when your arms long for her?}
You apologize
I smile
Say it’s alright
I understand
{because I do}
I understand
That you never wanted her to leave
And I understand
That you want her back
And
{even though it hurts}
It’s still something
Because now
I have someone to hold
{even if you wish it was her}
I have someone
To tell me they care
{even if it’s a lie}
And even if it hurts
For me to say this
I still love you.
{masochism}