Feeling

The worst feeling,
is not knowing what you are feeling.
One minute
I feel like crying.
And the next,
I want to smile.
Why?

Tears come,
refusing to cease.
Why?
I lay in bed wondering.
I have everything I need.
And yet,
tears come.

A shining smile appears on my face.
Why?
Anything bad that can happen
is happening to me now.
And yet,
I smile.

Such powerful things
feelings are.
It seems so simple.
Joy, sadness, anger.
But what about the unknown feelings?
The ones I can't seem to get past?
Do they get a name?
A title of what is going on in my mind
and head
and heart?

No,

I am left guessing,
trying to figure out
why I am crying,
why I am smiling,
what I am feeling.