Black Ties and White Lies

I want to know
What makes a night out complete.
Undoubtedly it’s not
The high heels, the fake smiles,
Nor do I love the social setting
That only has people whispering.

I want to know
How to arrive home
Without an inferiority complex.
How can I ever measure up?
There is no awards ceremony
That would ever honor me.

I want to know
Why we do anything
If we’re only thinking about the
Next thing
And talking about the last thing..

I want to know
What’s here,
What’s real,
And why there are so many
Illusions thrown in.