no matter how many times we promise not to do it again

it always comes back to us somehow


reminding us we are still what we were



we are still fighting it




we have to fall again to rise back to the top
it isn't easy

each time we fall more time is placed in between


making it so much harder to fall back



making it so easy to give up




its not ok





but its part of recovery
we can give in

or we can resist


either is hard



but only one will rise above

sometimes we have to lose


to remember what we are fighting for



as a reminder to go on
i have fallen

i gave in


only yesterday



only this morning




but this afternoon i am standing up

this afternoon i will not give in


this afternoon the cycle starts over



the addiction that never truly left comes back




the fight brings itself to the surface

im back at day 1


ready to fight



no matter how many more times i fall