Self Harm

July 25, 2011
It hits me like a wave and pulls me down under,

Not letting me go until I surrender.

It drags me along and doesn’t let go

Not even when I protest and tell it ‘no’

It yells at me and hurts me and shows no remorse

It comes out of nowhere and I don’t know the source

It’s the urge that’s so powerful that does this to me

The urge that’s so painful and comes so suddenly

Finally I give in and I reach for the blade

I look down at my arm at the scars that won’t fade

In a second it’s over and I feel so alive

I’m broken and distant but I know I’ll survive

I lay on the floor crying and laughing at the same time

I love what this does and no one can take it - it’s mine

They tell me to stop because it will hurt me in the end

But I need it so much that I can’t comprehend

So I will keep it — it’s special — ‘cuz it’s my one only vice

It helps me more than it hurts me and I’m willing to pay the price

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simply_beautiful said...
Nov. 5, 2013 at 8:44 pm
I have just gotten back into self harm a couple months ago and I have felt so alone. This poem really made an impact. I feel as if someone can understand. That I am not a lost soul in this world. You don't understand how much I needed this tonight. You may have saved my life.
justsmileanddance said...
Oct. 30, 2011 at 1:10 pm
you put what i'm feeling into words perfectly
MissUnderstoodd replied...
Oct. 30, 2011 at 4:32 pm
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