Life's Delete Button

July 26, 2011
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I'm crying the same tears of pain again.
One day they'll all run out.
And then what will I do?
I know I'll never stop being mad,
And I'll never stop being sad.
Life just can't resist pissing me off.

And you are one of the problems.
Loving you is like loving a disease.
And I'm not strong enough for the vaccine,
Or deserving enough.
But I know I can't be mad at you,
I can only be mad at myself.
Mad at myself for getting my hopes up
And thinking that maybe by some slim chance,
It was possible for you to love me back.

Is it ok just to give up?
Is it ok to drop all your problems unto a blade,
And let that blade release all the pressure that you had held inside?
I don't want to wait around to find out.
I can't erase my words or actions,
But I know I can erase me.

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billlover420 said...
Oct. 8, 2011 at 7:13 pm
ITS SO HARD JUST TO BE HAPPPY iknw and you try and try but it feels like u keep falling so fast and you knw that you know your not stong enough and u hate your self for that bc u want to be strong and you want to get better . yet it feels like it wont happen . and u just want the blade to take it all away . im sorry u feel like this iknw what it all feels like more than alot of people think . its amazeing how you can write something and let the emotion you have take over and it seems to help jus... (more »)
GothChik95 replied...
Oct. 8, 2011 at 7:21 pm
Thanks, it has gotten a bit better. But sometimes it is hard to know when I'm happy because I'm used to being unconfident. I hate that I hate myself still, but I guess that with time it can only get better....
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