Deep.

July 19, 2011
By Angie.Hudak GOLD, Doylestown, Pennsylvania
Angie.Hudak GOLD, Doylestown, Pennsylvania
10 articles 0 photos 42 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Hope for the best, expect the worst."
"One good thing about music, when it hits you, you feel no pain." -Bob Marley


My blue colored contacts
mask the smoldering flame
that rests right below the surface

The burning flame
that goes out suddenly
when tears flood my eyes
and steamroll my sun kissed cheeks

I clutch the small tack
confused and hurting
slicing my wrist over
and over
and over
and over.
Until the pain shaking my heart
transfers to my bloody hands
and my leaking wrist.

I hold the razor blade
knowledgeable and pained
ripping my arm and wrist
time after
time after
time.
Waiting till I go numb
and my emotions no longer throb
just my left arm.

I grasp the knife
professional and skilled
Slashing my arm, wrist, and palm
forever
and ever
and ever.
Looking forward to
the magical moment
the physical pain overtakes
the emotional and mental pain
that pounds of me every second
of every minute.
Of every hour.
Week. Day.
Month. Year.
Life. Death.
Eternity. Till the end of time.


The author's comments:
I was an extreme cutter. I decided to put my process down on paper. Totally raw and always painful to read. Hope it's not to...graphic. Enjoy...?

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on Jul. 23 2011 at 6:35 pm
Angie.Hudak GOLD, Doylestown, Pennsylvania
10 articles 0 photos 42 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Hope for the best, expect the worst."
"One good thing about music, when it hits you, you feel no pain." -Bob Marley

Thank you so much[: I'd be glad to check out some of your work!

on Jul. 22 2011 at 9:05 pm
Dragonfly_Girl PLATINUM, Pleasant Hill, California
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Favorite Quote:
Life is not waiting for the storm to pass, but learning to dance in the rain.

Oh my god. I would say beautiful, but it's not. And I guess that's the point. Nonetheless, well written, amazing, heartbreaking. I have lived this. If you get a chance, check out my stuff! I'd love to hear what you think. Keep hoping! Keep writing!


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