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Eyes.
Lips.
Hands.
Mouth.
Self.

Proof I am broken beyond repair
I tell the tragic tale of my past.
Innocence. Ripped away.
Rape. Brutal.
Abuse. Beaten senseless.
Advantage. Taken of too often.
Love. True and false.
Lust. Deep and dangerous.
Despair. Cold and shattered.
Desperation. Seeking a way out.
Failed freedom. Nine times. All alone.

My eyes shift uncomfortably
around and around, unsure.
Spill tears like leaky watering cans.
Uncontrollable, racing tears down my cheeks.

My lips kiss and touch boys
smile and blow kisses to them.
But pout and frown when alone
because the pain I feel is all too real.

My hands clap and wave
raise the roof and touch people.
Wring one another when anger, stress, sadness are too much,
and clutch a small knife, drenched in blood.

My mouth talks, flirts, giggles, laughs.
Tastes tongues and others.
Screams and yells at everyone and anyone.
Begging for anything to notice me dying inside.

Myself.
Proves the ultimate truth.
Scars scatter my arm, wrist, hand, and hips.
Looks back at starving, binging, purging.
Hides the bruises from abusive boys and men.
Disguises the broken little girl with a strong young lady.
Covers the eyes that haven't rested in days.
Masks the pure truth.
Radiates deceiving lies.



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GangstaEyesThis teenager is a 'regular' and has contributed a lot of work, comments and/or forum posts, and has received many votes and high ratings over a long period of time. This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. said...
Aug. 4, 2011 at 9:40 am:
I can definitely relate to this :\ I love the format you used, and the descriptions you included make your poem stand out, makes it memorable. I have a couple poems "Considering the Lies" and "Looking in the Mirror" that are similar to this if you wanna check them out. Thanks and keep writing - I know I'll keep reading!
 
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JustBelieveInMeThis teenager is a 'regular' and has contributed a lot of work, comments and/or forum posts, and has received many votes and high ratings over a long period of time. said...
Jul. 24, 2011 at 8:32 pm:
I love your rawness and details!
 
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DinosoarJen This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. said...
Jul. 20, 2011 at 5:06 pm:

You are very strong. Stay that way!

You're very talented. Maybe you can check out my stuff sometime? I would appreciate it! Keep up the good work!!

 

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Cortney.Lynn said...
Jul. 18, 2011 at 2:40 pm:
I really like this one...I like how its so open and just admiting whats going on and really shows how shes feeling. You are really good, you must keep writing!(:
 
Angie.HudakThis teenager is a 'regular' and has contributed a lot of work, comments and/or forum posts, and has received many votes and high ratings over a long period of time. This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. replied...
Jul. 18, 2011 at 3:51 pm :
Aww thank you so much :] you have to keep writing too, its so amazing!
 
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