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Thoughts.

July 12, 2011
By Melliana SILVER, Ware Shoals, South Carolina
Melliana SILVER, Ware Shoals, South Carolina
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Favorite Quote:
"And by the way, everything in life is writable about if you have the outgoing guts to do it, and the imagination to improvise. The worst enemy to creativity is self-doubt." - Sylvia Plath


Surrounded by gloom and plagued by weariness,
I succumb to my mind.

My mind's a scary place.
To think is to let my demons out of their cages and allow them to roam,
Rampaging through my body.

There's no one but me in this tiny room,
So I suppose it won't hurt to let them romp until they're tired of destroying me.

The most lethal thought I've ever had the pleasure of possessing is the fact that I

Never

Could

Have

Existed.

Sometimes it's delicious to think about. A world without me.

But this old Earth wouldn't skip a beat.

I'm unnoticed anyway. I'm such an isolationist that no one would really notice if I happened to drop off one of the many edges of this old world one day.

Happens every day. It's routine now, I suppose.

But why'd you have to save me? Me?! Why couldn't you have saved one of the millions of others that have died at birth, before birth? Why'd I have to remain?

I don't know why I feel guilty.
Or maybe I just don't know.


The author's comments:
I wrote this one night when my thoughts got to me. My mother had complications when she gave birth to me, so I was just pondering that for some reason. I began to wonder why I survived when so many others don't, some who may have more potential than I. It's scary to think about.

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Squeaks BRONZE said...
on Aug. 8 2011 at 11:05 am
Squeaks BRONZE, Glen Allen, Virginia
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Favorite Quote:
"Some people just don't know when to quit." --from the back of my XC team's 200 summer mile club T-shirt

This is good. (Even if you didn't need me to tell you that.) The form goes nicely, you have a nice mind for poetry, if that makes any sense to you. And the thoughts are true and good. Thanks for posting, I enjoyed reading!

--Squeaks