Shattered

I stare at her
She stares back at me
She looks so hurt
So broken
Her eyes are full of tears
I know she's afraid of me
I can feel her fear as if it was
My own skin and bones

She's such a faker
A liar
A hider
A crier
A dier

It makes me so mad
That she thinks she can just
Build all these walls around her
And expect someone
Anyone
To break them down
She can't just run
Or hide
From her life
From her feelings
From her memories

She whimpers
Begging me
Not to make her remember
Her haunting past
Her sickening present
Her dreaded future
She can't face the facts
She's too weak
For a split second
I feel sorry for her
I want to help her

She's still staring at me
She has pleading, sunken eyes
Wrists scarred at her own expense
Pale and sickly skin
Arms so skinny they could snap
Horrible, malicious thoughts
Hair a tangled, careless mess
To hide her face and its 
Pained expression
Her faded lips are sealed
She can't speak
I don't even remember her voice
She's everything I promised myself
I never would be

She's a traitor
She betrayed me
With her fragile, little whispers
Swore she would take care of me
Promised to never let me go

She cackles at my desperation
I laugh back at her weakness
We glare at each other for a moment
I feel hatred boiling up inside of me
I hate her
I HATE her

I lunge forward
And hit her 
As hard as I can
Smiling 
And eager for her hurt expression
I want to hear her scream 
I want to see her cry
I want to smell her blood
But as I hit her
She's not the one to bleed
I am
Shards of glass fall on me
They slice my fingers
And cut my face

And that's when i realize
She was my reflection
She mirrored my own
Depression
Pain
Malice
And pathetic-ness

She is really me
And now we both lay 
In the remnants of broken glass
Broken dreams
I begin to cry
The mirror,  my reflection, and I
Are lifeless and destroyed
We are all broken 
Shattered





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lilliemais said...
Aug. 19, 2012 at 8:58 am
Hey no problem! You truly are a fantastic writer and this poem is proof of it, as is every work with your name on it. Thank you so much for your comments on my pieces! I really appreciate what you said, and I'm really glad that you liked them - it means a lot to me that you do. I definitely look forward to reading more of your works :) 
 
shapeshifter56 replied...
Sept. 13, 2012 at 8:02 pm
Thank you so much! :) I looked at your work too and loved it! Keep up the great work! I look forward to reading more of yours too!
 
lilliemais said...
Aug. 18, 2012 at 8:52 am
This poem is fantastic - you are an amazing writer please keep on writing! Like you I also experienced depression every so often and this feeling you outlined beautifully in this poem is precisely how it feels like - to be disappointed on yourself and feel you're worth nothing. Good job on this one :) Hey I also wanted to ask you if you could briskly swift through my poem Silence Flutters and give me any comments or suggestions on how I could write better - I love literature and poems, and I... (more »)
 
shapeshifter56 replied...
Aug. 18, 2012 at 5:40 pm
Thank you so much! That really means a lot to me! I think depression is something that's misunderstood easily so I'm glad I got the message across. Thank you so much :) I would LOVE to read your writing! Do you know how to post the link?
 
miracle_of_hope said...
Aug. 7, 2011 at 7:43 pm
wow, seems like you have experiance ... is a powerful peice of writing with a powerful message
 
shapeshifter56 replied...
Aug. 8, 2011 at 12:26 am
Yeah, i had depression a few years back. That was thr inspiration, but luckily it's over now :).
 
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