I used to be scared that you were happier without me. You would smile in all of your new pictures you posted, and it made me realize I don't smile at all. You used happy faces in all of your status updates. I realized I hadn't used a happy face in over a month. When I saw you at the local coffee joint, my heart sank because you ordered the same thing you always did. After I had ordered it before you. You did a double take and then smiled at me after you realized who I was. I went blond for you. The next night, I realized you were good at pretending. When you showed up at my doorstep with a big, yellow sunflower and tears in your eyes, I realized you missed me as much as I missed you. And you said you were terrified that I was happier without you.
Happier Without Me.
June 19, 2011