The only thing I will ever want is the only thing I will never allow myself to have.
Have you ever been so lonely, your entire body aches?
The only thing that will make the ache disappear is to be wrapped up in someone’s arms.
But I will never have that.
I will never have the love of someone else.
I am one of the few; the unlovable.
It took years to discover it.
But after having my heart ripped apart by every person I have ever let close to me, I closed the door.
And now I am doomed.
Doomed to eternal loneliness.
All I know is that this pain smaller than what I have endured.
My loneliness is now my safe haven.