I want to runaway and never turn back even after all these years you still see tears. I get myself up but kicked in the dirt. I smile but I'm close to tears. I thought things would get better but as time goes on your worse. I thought you loved me. Living in this bad world I look towards the sea seems like its my only peace id rather be by myself then waist my time. You played with my heart. Having a break down. I just need to let go. So miserable. I just wanna be in silence. You do these things and expect me to be ok. I'm so far away from knowing where I'm going. I am not what you want me to be. It's over and done. Trapped in this place where I shouldn't be. I lost my happy. My truth is unfree. I thought you'd be easy to forget. I'm lost. Lonely but taking a chance. Risking it all. I'm putting it all out on the line. My heart has been broken too many times. For me nothing ever gets better. I'm a train wreck wanting to be free. Tired slowly fading away. Gone. Taunted. Exhausted. Asking. Reasons. Shut down. These are my T.E.A.R.S. My tears are all I can do. Alone so I stay in the dark. On the outside I smile and laugh. On the inside I cry and ask god why. Just put me out of my misery. I'm trying to find my self. Looking for my happy. Trying to put myself back together.
May 14, 2011