I know now that there is no escape
I've blocked myself in and I can't seem to get away
I think I should feel full of sorrow and hate
But all I want is to kneel and pray

I only want to come back home again
Just one more time is all I need
I only want to feel safe and whole and then,
Maybe I might feel complete

The house where I dwell is no home at all
It's quiet, lonely, and is a war zone
No one there is able to catch me when I fall,
They're all falling too, skin and bones

I feel safe, open, welcome here
The sky opens and the clouds clear
the air is sweet, and the people divine
And we all are connected, somehow intertwined

It makes me sick to think I can't come back,
My mind starts racing, and I can't even see
All because of the energy I had lacked
And my being falls all about me.

How can they tell me I'm not allowed home?
This place where I live laugh and love like any other
It isn't fair if those less grateful than I may still roam
That place is the only place I can sit and recover

But it is still my fault for not keeping still
Not willing myself to try
It is my own fault that I am leaving, my destiny unfulfilled
And all I can ask myself is why?