Unsettled Sand

I hide myself in my room, hoping they don't notice that I'm gone.
I try to be happy, sometimes I succeed, but more rarely I fail. Knowing that i can't talk to someone about how I feel. Trying just makes it harder.
I think about how I don't want to eat, sleep, live. Just lay in a lake and feel my body slowly sink down, down, down, till I reach the bottom. Letting the unsettled sand settle on me, leaving me hidden forever never to be found. Hidden forever from danger.