As I reminisce about the moments in my mind
My mistakes stare bitterly back at me
There's a burning in my eyes
The painful pulsating in my throat seems to never leave

The aching takes me back to the times
When my thoughts were in confusion
Didn't make the right decision this time
My fears I tried to put in seclusion

I know very well no one's flawless that I realized
Yet I always seeked perfection
Often my existence I self penalized
No one around to help me find the direction

Never believed that someday
Someone like you would love me and my blinded stumbles
Lately these memories are in mind to stay
I try to look past them but my act always crumbles

Then when the wounds temporarily stop throbbing
I look at that photograph of us and my heart slowly sinks
Never felt this way before, my lip starts trembling
Dampness blurs my eyes, clearing my sight with quickened blinks

I never felt this way before
Literally never felt so lost and full of regret
Seems like I'm walking inside this maze
No guidance whatsoever, self hatred the threat
For I know I'm the reason things shifted this way
If only the falls I took I could forget

The day you said "We don't match each other"
I felt something unlike any other
Like weight on my chest or a slap to my face
Shocked I started to shudder

I pulled you close
because I knew it would be the last time I can call you mine
Just thought of this again
Oh how I would trade my life to go back in time

But as all good things came to an end
Reality pulled you far out of my reach
That's a reality I couldn't comprehend
The fact that my promises I breached

Every time I hear your name
Remember the things we shared
The pain attacks my chest again
I suddenly felt scared and unprepared