Pain
I hurt because of you.
The pain I felt when you hurt me.
The anger that followed what you did.

I could never understand why you did these things to me...
I was 8,
Just beginning life..

And you took it from me.
How is this fair to me??

I hurt everyday because you repeatedly raped me.
The pain of knowing you killed the little girl I was
and the woman I was meant to grow up and be.
The anger will never leave me now that its instilled into my everyday life.

I may never be the same because of you.
What sort of sick attraction could one grown man have for an 8 yr. old little girl.

I can never forget what you've done to me..
and to think I could never forgive you for what you've done to me
and put me and my family through.

But that has changed for me...
I forgive you for what you've done.
You couldn't help that you were sick in the head.
But you'll get what you deserve in the end.
I can't control what happens to you when you pass on but I can promise you..

The Pain
The Hurt
The Anger
The Dreams

The Crying


Will all leave me one day..
When I'm at peace with myself and the decisions I've made along this time.

I'm going to grow up and mature and be the best of what I can be.
I don't regret what you've done to me...
I want to thank you.
From everything that has happened,
I can now help other young girls who are going through what I went through.

I'm taking this experience and using it to my advantage.
If it wasn't for what you did to me for 8 years...
I wouldn't be the hard-working, determined, and leader I am today.

So thank you for showing me..
I'm going to make it...
Since you won't.