April 21, 2011
By Anonymous

Cross my heart and hope to die,
I swear to you, I’ll never lie.
I won’t let my children fall asleep,
Hearing sounds of their typical weeps.

I’ll never throw lamps at the wall;
I’ll never watch family pictures fall.
I used to fear you’d walk down that hall,
And mommy’s name I used to call.

When we left in my ninth year,
You didn’t shed a single tear.
You probably went and grabbed a beer,
And drank until you felt no fear.

When I was younger, you changed me;
A violent temper, still all I see.
Now you’re just piled up memories;
Constantly replaying inside of me.

You’re a cold, bitter, greedy man.
Should have known, you can’t give a damn.
Just because you are my “Dad”-
Doesn’t mean I can’t be mad.

The way you act, so carefree,
It really has cut into me.
I feel my heart break in two.
Why did God relate me to you?

When you look into my eyes,
I hope you see my silent cries.
I hope you see the scars you left;
To them, there’s never ending depth.

Cross my heart and hope to die,
I hope you’re proud of how you lie.
I hope that when you finally die,
You know you’re daughter will finally cry.

I am torn to pieces deep inside.
Every night, you make me cry.
Daddy, I hate that I love you,
And that you’ll never love me too.

The author's comments:
In the beginning, I wrote this piece just to get my own feelings out which usually makes me feel a lot better. Now I am hoping that maybe a few people can identify with this kind of situation and can find it comforting that you are never alone.

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on May. 30 2011 at 3:23 pm
LoVeSiCkAgAiN BRONZE, Llano, Texas
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Favorite Quote:
"To live in this single moment, this lightest breath, this softest touch, to be captured by this smallest, this briefest space of time, to be fully present, alive, consumed in this instant alone, this is truly living,"-Jill Pendley.

I love this, its amazing how just getting out your feelings can release a piece of writing such as that.



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