they are beautiful

scary


deadly



reminders of the past




shinning beacons of what you did

to myself
they scare me

they scare you


forever i am sorry
they burn

everyday


all the time



never going away



even if the physical scar fades




the internal never does

it can't
two choices rung in my ears

kill (fill in the blank)


self-harm
the latter screamed

trying to diminish the the internal pain


hoping for a new outlet



a cry for help without crying
bleeding

deep red


crusted



scabbing




bleeding again

they cycle continued


for weeks on end
why?

emotional abuse


neglect



indifference




hiding





loss
they never leave

haunting my everyday


giving off more heat than any other part of my body
the blood is gone

the razor...i'm un afraid of


i am clean



254 days cut free

but the urge comes again and again


tempting me



the pain stays
the scars are me

the pain


loss



hurt




emptiness





the ounce of hope keeping me away from suicide
your scars are beautiful

i know it


they haunt you



but they contributed to you




and that...is amazing
i've given up

i've started again


you can too

its not easy


but doable



if it wasn't




i would be dead
my scars

i don't like them


but one day



they will be beautiful too