Afraid No More

March 21, 2011
The classroom door opens
I jump and look ……
Could that be him?

A classroom door slams shut
I flinch and look ……
I wonder if that’s him.

I hear footsteps fall down the
School hallways
I catch my breath…….
Could that be him?

Someone standing in the street at night
Looking at me through the window
I close all the blinds, lock all the doors
There’s a knock at my front door
Could that be him?

The house pops, snaps, and cracks
I jump…. my heart skips a beat
These are ordinary sounds that
I’ve heard all my life
But I still jump, still flinch

He even invades my dreams too.
In the dream my teachers, my friends,
My family all turn into him. It’s like he’s
turned everybody against me.
He’s always there

I just want everything to stop
The bad dreams
The paranoia
The jumping and flinching
Putting the distance between myself and others.
I just want to be afraid no more
Because then he will win, and for once I want to win.
No matter how: mad or sad I get about all of this. It’s not going to change anything. It won’t change the fact that it still happened.
Yeah it’s still going to be there, yeah it still happened but I don’t want it to control the rest of my life.
I don’t want to be afraid no more

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sunriseusnset said...
Apr. 18, 2011 at 9:11 pm
spazz much? lol, jk. this is great. i always get those love jitters for a guy i fall hard for. i always feel stupid when i make it obvious, though. i always tell myself not to be afraid, but it's hard to put your feeling out there. i know..
Vivian229 said...
Apr. 18, 2011 at 12:40 pm
I really enjoyed reading this piece. It was really well written.
MaKayla1613 replied...
Apr. 18, 2011 at 12:56 pm
Thanks if you like this one I think you would like Walk Away also its about the same thing justa different tone
KevHiga_luver said...
Apr. 17, 2011 at 3:17 pm

woah, this is SO SO good!! its very well written and it really speaks to me. Great work!! :D

Have a good one!

SierraMolina said...
Apr. 16, 2011 at 10:19 pm
is him a person that had shotin someone? very good poem
little-miss-mistakes said...
Apr. 15, 2011 at 9:26 pm
very good!
thesunshines said...
Apr. 15, 2011 at 5:25 pm
I love this poem! It holds so much depth. Well done!
Miranda M. said...
Apr. 15, 2011 at 1:33 pm
who could this him be??? i need 2 know!!!
SonRisA replied...
Apr. 15, 2011 at 2:01 pm

what did this him do ??????


IndoPandaBear replied...
Apr. 15, 2011 at 3:49 pm
is "him" an ex-boyfriend who turns crazy?????  MG, I wanna know who him is, dont even need name, just who is "he"????? Curiosity!!!!!!!
MaKayla1613 replied...
Apr. 17, 2011 at 3:51 pm
If you guys like this one check out my new one Walk Away. It should come out pretty soon. Its about the same thing.
MaKayla1613 replied...
Apr. 17, 2011 at 3:52 pm
He was my babysitter who did some  very mean nasty things to me when I was 10. And by nasty I mean inapportiate things
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