I bend but I don't break

I told another lie today
no one knew it wasn't true
someone spoke cruel words today
but I still got through
I bent but I didn't break
I made it through the day

The cuts on my wrist have yet to disappear
instead more appear
pain is no longer pain but pleasure
how sick that must appear
hurt turn to tears
then the pleasure begins
I bend but I have yet to break

I cut to deep this time
blood runs down my arm
there is no help for me now
I can see no light
this is my last day
what have I to say
I have been broken
today is my day
the hurt turns to eternity
I bend but I don't brake, that is until today