Not me

February 3, 2011
By Rose15 SILVER, Rockville, Maryland
Rose15 SILVER, Rockville, Maryland
6 articles 0 photos 9 comments

Favorite Quote:
Love exsists, dont search for it. Because it will find you.


When you look in the mirror
Who do you see?
I do not recognize the face
That is staring back at me
I do not see someone
Who is strong
I do not see someone
Who feels like they belong
Where is that person
Who smiled just because?
Where is that person
That I once was?
All is see is someone who is weak
I see someone who is scared
Someone whose dreams, whose feelings
Will never be shared
I see fragments of
What I used to be
Fragments,
But not a whole me
Why all the pain,
Anger,
I hold it all inside
Behind thies big wall
I just want to hide
I let other people
Change who I am,
Who I¹m supposd to be
Now they are gone
And I¹m left with this person,
This person who is not me
I let people hurt me,
I let them win
Then feel guilty
For it is I who has sinned
So who is this person
Struggling to get out
This person who needs to hide
Behind the fear, behind the doubt
And when I¹m alone
And it¹s just her and I
Why must I protect her from the truth?
Why must I lie?
If only change were easy
If only life was fair
If only I had someone to hold me
Someone that would care
I need to find the strength
To face all my fears
It needs to be okay
To cry all these tears
Someday I hope to be
That person I¹m meant to be
Someday I hope I get to know
That person who is me


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on Mar. 1 2011 at 6:37 pm
MyConstRuctd_IdentiTy SILVER, Chardon, Ohio
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Favorite Quote:
"One heartbeat."

"Our scars remind us of where we've been; they don't dictate where we're going."
-SSA David Rossi, Criminal Minds

lol I think I remember talking with you before, as well. It's always good to *see a familiar face*(virtual-like, ya know?). Anyway, I suppose it doesn't matter whether or not it's realistic or not, it's really good writing. But what makes it even better is the fact that it is true, and it is reality. For some people, it's easier to transform their thoughts and feelings into words such as this, others... not so much. Unlike you, I find it very difficult to do so. Congratulations on a job well done. Keep it up! :)

on Mar. 1 2011 at 6:15 pm
SpringRayyn PLATINUM, Lakeville, Minnesota
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Favorite Quote:
"Don't punish yourself," she heard her say again, but there would be punishment and pain, and there would be happiness too. That was writing."
--Markus Zusak, "The Book Thief"

I love this and I can relate!

Rose15 SILVER said...
on Mar. 1 2011 at 7:50 am
Rose15 SILVER, Rockville, Maryland
6 articles 0 photos 9 comments

Favorite Quote:
Love exsists, dont search for it. Because it will find you.

I guess you can say this is reality considering everything I said was true on who I feel. Secondly, I remember you and me talking before. Thanks for commenting.

on Feb. 28 2011 at 2:14 pm
MyConstRuctd_IdentiTy SILVER, Chardon, Ohio
7 articles 56 photos 367 comments

Favorite Quote:
"One heartbeat."

"Our scars remind us of where we've been; they don't dictate where we're going."
-SSA David Rossi, Criminal Minds

One question before I comment further: Is this in reality? Or is it fiction?


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